The soap opera called my life
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Why...
can't I be rich enough for a maid or assistant? HA HA Being sick, I don't want to go to the store but supplies are running low....he he So, you see fellow bloggers, a maid or assistant would come in handy right about now!
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dreams and men
Has anyone ever studied dreams, i.e. what they mean, why we have them, etc.?
I have been talking to this GREAT guy for the past week or so. He is super sweet, caring, thoughtful, a christian, good head on his shoulders, very into me. Last night when I was sick he couldn't have been any better. He has even checked in on me already today (and its 1:23 in the afternoon). The thing is I actually remembered my dream last night, and they guy in it was Ryan a.k.a. my ex that I can't technically let go of, or get away from. It wasn't the new guy Steve.
In the dream, I am going out with Ryan and some other people (I think he was even with another girl...not sure). Anyway we get back and my car has been broken into and I remember we take off, end up somerwhere (hotel I think) and just talk. Why him? Why now?
I think my car getting broken into in my dream stems from me worrying about it while I was at the doctor last night and from the fact that I want a new car. Not gonna happen for a while unless a there is yet another wreck or someone messes it up breaking into it (any takers? LOL J/K!!!) Anywho, the Ryan part of the dream I am not sure where that came from....he never was that great at taking care of me, doing things for me. Just the opposite actually. I did for him, was there for him. Was that part of my dream because I wished that he was more like that? Do I still love him? I dunno....I said long ago I deserved so much better. Someone there for me, to talk to, spend time with, really get to know. A while back I saw him and it hit me once I saw him that maybe my feelings were gone. Then I find myself thinking about him, wanting to call him. Is it that he has been a part of my life for over 2 years? Is it that he was my first true love?
Penguin has been such a trooper dealing with me and everything with him :) Girl, I know what you are thinking as you read this....LOL. But, you can somewhat understand this better than anyone.
Okay, now with that off my chest I really need to rest and hopefully feel better...
Oh, and 11 days until the cruise! WOO HOO !!! I know I've slacked on the updates, but I got to thinking it was kinda conceited and stuff....in the beginning I had just saw it as keeping people updated and something weekly for me to post about, that kinda thing.
NOW I am really off to sleep.... ¶ Thursday, March 23, 2006 1 comments
I have been talking to this GREAT guy for the past week or so. He is super sweet, caring, thoughtful, a christian, good head on his shoulders, very into me. Last night when I was sick he couldn't have been any better. He has even checked in on me already today (and its 1:23 in the afternoon). The thing is I actually remembered my dream last night, and they guy in it was Ryan a.k.a. my ex that I can't technically let go of, or get away from. It wasn't the new guy Steve.
In the dream, I am going out with Ryan and some other people (I think he was even with another girl...not sure). Anyway we get back and my car has been broken into and I remember we take off, end up somerwhere (hotel I think) and just talk. Why him? Why now?
I think my car getting broken into in my dream stems from me worrying about it while I was at the doctor last night and from the fact that I want a new car. Not gonna happen for a while unless a there is yet another wreck or someone messes it up breaking into it (any takers? LOL J/K!!!) Anywho, the Ryan part of the dream I am not sure where that came from....he never was that great at taking care of me, doing things for me. Just the opposite actually. I did for him, was there for him. Was that part of my dream because I wished that he was more like that? Do I still love him? I dunno....I said long ago I deserved so much better. Someone there for me, to talk to, spend time with, really get to know. A while back I saw him and it hit me once I saw him that maybe my feelings were gone. Then I find myself thinking about him, wanting to call him. Is it that he has been a part of my life for over 2 years? Is it that he was my first true love?
Penguin has been such a trooper dealing with me and everything with him :) Girl, I know what you are thinking as you read this....LOL. But, you can somewhat understand this better than anyone.
Okay, now with that off my chest I really need to rest and hopefully feel better...
Oh, and 11 days until the cruise! WOO HOO !!! I know I've slacked on the updates, but I got to thinking it was kinda conceited and stuff....in the beginning I had just saw it as keeping people updated and something weekly for me to post about, that kinda thing.
NOW I am really off to sleep.... ¶ Thursday, March 23, 2006 1 comments
sick:(
So I didn't go to work today, obviously since I'm writing this post he he I went to the after hours clinic last night with a fever and sore throat. It hurts to talk and swallow :( I'm hoping that I don't have strep. They kept me outta work today but I am released to go back tomorrow. We'll see how I feel though.
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
tonight....
So tonight my friend Stacy and I go to dinner at some mexican restaraunt off 138. Now, let me just say that I am looking rough this evening....hair frizzy on top of my head, old make-up on and not all of my make-up on. Well, the whole time we are eating I feel this guy looking at me, etc. Well he leaves, and Stacy and I continue talking. The next thing I know he has come up to me, introduces himself, ask me my name, etc. and gives me his number so I can call him. RANDOM!!!! Stacy said he was cute and that I should call him. We agreed that he gets huge props for coming up and being bold like he was in giving me his number. What's up with me getting 2 phone numbers in 2 nights? I must be HOT! lol
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when I came home yesterday...
I discovered my patio door on my 2nd floor apartment open and my alarm going off. Did I ever get a call from the alarm company? NO. When I called my apartment office they were like"...maintenance hasn't been in there.....you can pay $35 to have your locks changed." WOO HOO . You would think that they cared more about their community and be concerned if someone is breaking into people's apartments.
Also, they informed me that since I don't have a landline phone I am not monitored by an alarm company. WHAT???!!!!! They NEVER told me of this. My alarm is included in my rent, and that was a huge selling point on this apartment. No wonder I never received a call from the alarm company huh?
My door was opened from the inside fellow bloggers, no if -ands- or- buts about it. It only opens from the inside and I rarely use it. I always lock it....have to to make sure it shuts completely. Obviously it was shut or I couldn't have set the alarm. Nothing is missing, no signs of anything....weird.
Not sure what to do....got freaked out a little at having to stay here last night alone.
I have signed on for another lease already, however it doesn't take effect until June 1. Think I can get out of it? There is no clause about signing early and not getting out of it, etc. It is just a regular lease, like I had signed in June 1. Part of me wants out of it. I have until April1 to give 60 day notice and see if I can get out of it. I will be praying about it and keep ya posted. ¶ Saturday, March 18, 2006 1 comments
Also, they informed me that since I don't have a landline phone I am not monitored by an alarm company. WHAT???!!!!! They NEVER told me of this. My alarm is included in my rent, and that was a huge selling point on this apartment. No wonder I never received a call from the alarm company huh?
My door was opened from the inside fellow bloggers, no if -ands- or- buts about it. It only opens from the inside and I rarely use it. I always lock it....have to to make sure it shuts completely. Obviously it was shut or I couldn't have set the alarm. Nothing is missing, no signs of anything....weird.
Not sure what to do....got freaked out a little at having to stay here last night alone.
I have signed on for another lease already, however it doesn't take effect until June 1. Think I can get out of it? There is no clause about signing early and not getting out of it, etc. It is just a regular lease, like I had signed in June 1. Part of me wants out of it. I have until April1 to give 60 day notice and see if I can get out of it. I will be praying about it and keep ya posted. ¶ Saturday, March 18, 2006 1 comments
St. Paddy Day '06 -dating story included he he
So last night to celebrate S. Patricks Day and hang out, Sara (fellow ZTA and one of my best friends) came to visit me in the peach state from Opelika. She got here around 9, and an hour or so later we headed out to Wild Wings to hear Zac Brown.
Before we left and while I was still getting ready, we sat and chatted. It made me realize that I miss my ZTA girls, even after being out of college for almost 4 years. It made me realize I miss Sara, too. I have missed hanging out and talking like the good ole days.
Well when we leave she follows me since she is driving back to Opelika. BAD IDEA. LOL. Trying to follow someone through this big huge metropolis is NOT fun LOL. Anywho, I wasn't 100% sure of where we were going. I knew Wild Wings was on Roswell Rd. and I knew how to get there. I THOUGHT I knew where Wild Wings was. Turns out I was wrong! he he Also turns out that Roswell Rd. is sooo long and it's hard to find somewhere on that road. Add on to that it was after 11 and Sara still had the drive ahead of her. When we couldn't find Wild Wings I suggested we go to this place with lit up palm trees out front. Turns out it was American Pie. It looked okay so we ventured in. After a little but we settle at a table and chat. Then outta nowhere this guy walks up and starts chatting us up. Well when we get ready to leave we say bye and all. Well he starts in about how I haven't danced with him, blah, lah, blah. He proceeds to say how I need to get his number since I hadn't danced with him lol. So I do and before we leave I think he has poked/tickled me 2-3 times. He said I needed to call more than once. I left thinking" Yes! I still have it despite being fat!" LOL Anywho, I think I may send a text or call tomorrow. Thoughts anyone? ¶ Saturday, March 18, 2006 2 comments
So last night to celebrate S. Patricks Day and hang out, Sara (fellow ZTA and one of my best friends) came to visit me in the peach state from Opelika. She got here around 9, and an hour or so later we headed out to Wild Wings to hear Zac Brown.Before we left and while I was still getting ready, we sat and chatted. It made me realize that I miss my ZTA girls, even after being out of college for almost 4 years. It made me realize I miss Sara, too. I have missed hanging out and talking like the good ole days.
Well when we leave she follows me since she is driving back to Opelika. BAD IDEA. LOL. Trying to follow someone through this big huge metropolis is NOT fun LOL. Anywho, I wasn't 100% sure of where we were going. I knew Wild Wings was on Roswell Rd. and I knew how to get there. I THOUGHT I knew where Wild Wings was. Turns out I was wrong! he he Also turns out that Roswell Rd. is sooo long and it's hard to find somewhere on that road. Add on to that it was after 11 and Sara still had the drive ahead of her. When we couldn't find Wild Wings I suggested we go to this place with lit up palm trees out front. Turns out it was American Pie. It looked okay so we ventured in. After a little but we settle at a table and chat. Then outta nowhere this guy walks up and starts chatting us up. Well when we get ready to leave we say bye and all. Well he starts in about how I haven't danced with him, blah, lah, blah. He proceeds to say how I need to get his number since I hadn't danced with him lol. So I do and before we leave I think he has poked/tickled me 2-3 times. He said I needed to call more than once. I left thinking" Yes! I still have it despite being fat!" LOL Anywho, I think I may send a text or call tomorrow. Thoughts anyone? ¶ Saturday, March 18, 2006 2 comments
My angels
My angels pictured here Christmas Day 2005 are in the hospital back home, and I'm kinda scared to be honest. Braxton (the oldest one ) is dehydrated really bad and has been there for 2 days, going on 3 today. Owen is the baby and even though he hasn't been admitted like Braxton, they did request he stay there to keep watch over him since this virus is contagious.
Braxton just lays lifeless. A 2 year old. They are not supposed to do that. He doesn't normally. It kills me to think of him that way and that I am not there. Those precious boys mean the world to me and I am scared about what if something happens? The docs seem like they don't know much. They say both of them maybe have this virus that is called 2 different things. Well according to the internet that is not so. My dad says the virus is fatal, but that it seems to stem from the fact that people with it get so dehydrated and don't seek medical help. He was going to talk to the docs more about it and show them what he found on the internet. Their mom (my sister) said Braxton seems better though. I am going to call and try to catch him awake, and let them put the phone up to his ear so I can tell him I love him and wish I was there. he and I talk on the phone alot since I am so far away and can't visit like I want to. It kills me he can't see me there and all, but if I can tell him that on the phone I'll feel a little better. Lift them up in your prayers please! ¶ Saturday, March 18, 2006 0 comments
My angels pictured here Christmas Day 2005 are in the hospital back home, and I'm kinda scared to be honest. Braxton (the oldest one ) is dehydrated really bad and has been there for 2 days, going on 3 today. Owen is the baby and even though he hasn't been admitted like Braxton, they did request he stay there to keep watch over him since this virus is contagious.
Braxton just lays lifeless. A 2 year old. They are not supposed to do that. He doesn't normally. It kills me to think of him that way and that I am not there. Those precious boys mean the world to me and I am scared about what if something happens? The docs seem like they don't know much. They say both of them maybe have this virus that is called 2 different things. Well according to the internet that is not so. My dad says the virus is fatal, but that it seems to stem from the fact that people with it get so dehydrated and don't seek medical help. He was going to talk to the docs more about it and show them what he found on the internet. Their mom (my sister) said Braxton seems better though. I am going to call and try to catch him awake, and let them put the phone up to his ear so I can tell him I love him and wish I was there. he and I talk on the phone alot since I am so far away and can't visit like I want to. It kills me he can't see me there and all, but if I can tell him that on the phone I'll feel a little better. Lift them up in your prayers please! ¶ Saturday, March 18, 2006 0 comments
Thursday, March 16, 2006
WARNING: I get whiny and vent.....
When will God send me my "prince"? I pray and pray for him, and I know God will deliver, just in his own time. Unfortunately it doesn't seem to coordinate with my time. I gotta get over that, but it's hard. Have you ever been there,where you see all of your friends settled and your still the single one, playing the dating game all the time? It STINKS for those of you who haven't! Everytime I think I have a good guy that truly likes me for me, I am proven wrong. ARGH!
I stinks too that my best friend other than Penguin is gone. I miss D. She was the last one to go to "couple land" ha ha. Her beau was why she moved back home. They will more than likely be engaged within the year, or so they hope. Kinda their plan right now, anyway. Even my best bud back home has found hers. So has my friend S down here that I had hang out with a little. She has been seeing the same guy around a month and it's going well. Who knows...maybe she can introduce to some of his friends. No one else has that possibility really. No friends to introduce me to or whatever.
I must say too that I am kinda getting tired of the internet sites I have been on for dating. I am thinking of doing none at all. Or trying the really expensive ones where you know the people on there are looking for something meaningful, not just a booty call!
Or maybe God will see fit to send me my "prince." I hope so. I'll be praying for it!!!
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!!! *hugs* ¶ Thursday, March 16, 2006 2 comments
I stinks too that my best friend other than Penguin is gone. I miss D. She was the last one to go to "couple land" ha ha. Her beau was why she moved back home. They will more than likely be engaged within the year, or so they hope. Kinda their plan right now, anyway. Even my best bud back home has found hers. So has my friend S down here that I had hang out with a little. She has been seeing the same guy around a month and it's going well. Who knows...maybe she can introduce to some of his friends. No one else has that possibility really. No friends to introduce me to or whatever.
I must say too that I am kinda getting tired of the internet sites I have been on for dating. I am thinking of doing none at all. Or trying the really expensive ones where you know the people on there are looking for something meaningful, not just a booty call!
Or maybe God will see fit to send me my "prince." I hope so. I'll be praying for it!!!
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!!! *hugs* ¶ Thursday, March 16, 2006 2 comments
I'm baaack....
Hey all you bloggers! Contrary to popular belief (Penguin), I am not boycotting anyone LOL I have just been crazy busy and tired, no patience at all. When I am in that mode I just stay away from most people. No offense and not directed towards anyone...just how I handle it. You know me. Anywho, I started my part-time job of working afterschool this week. I work withe the kids on Tuesdays and Wenesdays from 3-6 for some extra cash. It's not been that bad, just tiring and made for long days. Plus with allergies kicking up...you know! And, we are giving the ITBS test this week which is draining and it makes the kids 100 times worse as far as behavior. I have had NO patience whatsoever. Evidence of such:
1. The other day I told my students that recess should not even be in their vocabulary after them coming in so loudly and such, when they know better.
2. Today they could not be quiet and act right in the hall for ANYTHING. So we spent about 10 minutes or so walking the hall, practicing. I added a lap for every time they messed up. Yeah, we got to 11. I had to make 5 sit out...they get to walk tomorrow while I reward the good ones. I think I will reward the good ones with recess and let the ones walking watch them playing and having a great time.
3. One student that was made sit out kept on and on about why he did what he did to get in trouble, even after me telling him to be quiet. Everytime after that he tried to talk to me about it he got a day of silent lunch. He got to 3 before it sunk in that he needed to be quiet.
4. Since they wasted time in the hall and other times today, they got 6 practice book pages fopr homework since we didn't get to it today.
Can you tell I have had it????!!!! ¶ Thursday, March 16, 2006 0 comments
1. The other day I told my students that recess should not even be in their vocabulary after them coming in so loudly and such, when they know better.
2. Today they could not be quiet and act right in the hall for ANYTHING. So we spent about 10 minutes or so walking the hall, practicing. I added a lap for every time they messed up. Yeah, we got to 11. I had to make 5 sit out...they get to walk tomorrow while I reward the good ones. I think I will reward the good ones with recess and let the ones walking watch them playing and having a great time.
3. One student that was made sit out kept on and on about why he did what he did to get in trouble, even after me telling him to be quiet. Everytime after that he tried to talk to me about it he got a day of silent lunch. He got to 3 before it sunk in that he needed to be quiet.
4. Since they wasted time in the hall and other times today, they got 6 practice book pages fopr homework since we didn't get to it today.
Can you tell I have had it????!!!! ¶ Thursday, March 16, 2006 0 comments
Sunday, March 05, 2006
yesterday and today...
Good morning bloggers! Here is an update for those of you just on the edge of your seat for my lastest entry (LOL yeah right!). So yesterday I got up closer to 11 and went walking for a while after some time on the computer blogging and playing on myspace. SO addictive!!! Carey came over a little bit too on her way back to her house. I rested a little bit before talking to Chas and getting ready for the night.
Anywho, so I had my 2nd date with Kevin last night. We were both wanting mexican to eat so we went to my fave mexican place by my house. We then ran to the theatre close to my place and saw nothing out we cared to see, so we ended up at blockbuster. We were both wanting to watch 40 yr. old virgin so we rented that. We then came back and watched that until close 1. He was too cute falling asleep near the end of the movie he he. He is still so nervous and all, which is cute and funny both. Well I go to the door to let him leave, and after he gets his stuff together he gives me a hug, at which I say thanks for dinner, blah, blah, blah.... he then gets brave and kisses me LOL I wasn't getting past it this time LOL I walked right into it with the way I walked up to hug him, right there in front of his face he he. I called to check on him a little after he left since he had been so tired. He was making it okay, though.
So, today I am in a funk about church for some reason, so I am not going. I need to pray about it...not sure what's up. I have been struggling with some issues, plus my dad has said some stuff that has stuck with me about what type of church I go to. I will feel better if I go spend some time with God, my bible.
Okay, well I am off to walk again. Then maybe order pizza LOL Or, well, that may be better suited for tonight with the oscars on.....hmmmm......
Is greys and desperate housewives on tonight since the oscars are???????? ¶ Sunday, March 05, 2006 2 comments
Anywho, so I had my 2nd date with Kevin last night. We were both wanting mexican to eat so we went to my fave mexican place by my house. We then ran to the theatre close to my place and saw nothing out we cared to see, so we ended up at blockbuster. We were both wanting to watch 40 yr. old virgin so we rented that. We then came back and watched that until close 1. He was too cute falling asleep near the end of the movie he he. He is still so nervous and all, which is cute and funny both. Well I go to the door to let him leave, and after he gets his stuff together he gives me a hug, at which I say thanks for dinner, blah, blah, blah.... he then gets brave and kisses me LOL I wasn't getting past it this time LOL I walked right into it with the way I walked up to hug him, right there in front of his face he he. I called to check on him a little after he left since he had been so tired. He was making it okay, though.
So, today I am in a funk about church for some reason, so I am not going. I need to pray about it...not sure what's up. I have been struggling with some issues, plus my dad has said some stuff that has stuck with me about what type of church I go to. I will feel better if I go spend some time with God, my bible.
Okay, well I am off to walk again. Then maybe order pizza LOL Or, well, that may be better suited for tonight with the oscars on.....hmmmm......
Is greys and desperate housewives on tonight since the oscars are???????? ¶ Sunday, March 05, 2006 2 comments
Thursday, March 02, 2006
A day late...sorry!
Okay, so I am a day late on posting the weekly update on the cruise...sorry! Busy, long, tiring week.....ya know...
Anywho, here is the latest:
I just sent off a nice whopping $277 for a round trip plane ticket from Nashville to Ft. Lauderdale/Hollywood. YIKES! Lots of money. However, everything but spending money is paid for, taken care of.
I wanted to originally fly from here in GA to save money(another topic for another blog later), but my friend that I am going with is back home in TN. She didn't want to fly separately, plus she would have had a big layover in Ft. Lauderdale by herself ( I felt bad leaving her somewhere she doesn't know by herself). So I will be driving back Saturday the 1st of April to TN and spending the day and night with the fam. Sunday she is picking me up on the way to Nashville where we will be staying with some of her family so we can get up and be at the airport by 5 something Monday morning.
The whole reason the ticket was so expensive was flying back on the 8th, and from Florida. Blackout date for spring break and all, which starts the DAY BEFORE we get back!!! ARGH! he he Oh well, though huh? :)
Alright, well as I mentioned before, it's been a tiring week (despite my lazy butt taking a 1 1/2 hour nap earlier) and I am STILL tired... gonna hit the hay...till next time blogger friends! :) ¶ Thursday, March 02, 2006 0 comments
Anywho, here is the latest:
I just sent off a nice whopping $277 for a round trip plane ticket from Nashville to Ft. Lauderdale/Hollywood. YIKES! Lots of money. However, everything but spending money is paid for, taken care of.
I wanted to originally fly from here in GA to save money(another topic for another blog later), but my friend that I am going with is back home in TN. She didn't want to fly separately, plus she would have had a big layover in Ft. Lauderdale by herself ( I felt bad leaving her somewhere she doesn't know by herself). So I will be driving back Saturday the 1st of April to TN and spending the day and night with the fam. Sunday she is picking me up on the way to Nashville where we will be staying with some of her family so we can get up and be at the airport by 5 something Monday morning.
The whole reason the ticket was so expensive was flying back on the 8th, and from Florida. Blackout date for spring break and all, which starts the DAY BEFORE we get back!!! ARGH! he he Oh well, though huh? :)
Alright, well as I mentioned before, it's been a tiring week (despite my lazy butt taking a 1 1/2 hour nap earlier) and I am STILL tired... gonna hit the hay...till next time blogger friends! :) ¶ Thursday, March 02, 2006 0 comments
